WHO AM I?

So after a long period of time being jobless, resenting myself for leaving a work place (which I didn't like anyway), being somehow a little depressed and panicking every day what to do about my anger and bad mood... I started searching for information about what is my purpose in life, what is my personality, what am I the best at doing and stuff like that. I just didn't feel that I'm looking in the right direction. Have you every felt that? That something is missing? Sure I was doing good things for myself, running again, eating a little bit healthier and trying to figure out what to do with my life. But still I felt pressure in me, in my heart, my mind was killing me with thoughts that I'm not good enough. What if all falls apart, what if I fall apart, what if I don't get things that I want.. until one day, I came across a book. Oh, that wasn't just a book for me...

I was always interested in THE TRUTH. Who are we? What are we doing here? What is our purpose? What happens when I die?...

For everyone who wants to do some soul searching and get to know the truth, that is a book for you: The untethered soul, by Michael A. Singer. Second book he wrote after is The surrender experiment, which I also recommend. I understood everything better after reading both. 

(read more on: http://untetheredsoul.com/)

So what I've learned is that.. if you pay attention to your everyday life, you will hear a voice speaking to you. All day, for everything. What you like, don't like, what you need, everyday stuff. It gets worse when you have to make a decision or for example have something hard to do. For me that would be a verbal presentation at school. Oooh my, voice starts with ok, I will do this like that and say that like this and oh, how do I look... and then what if that goes wrong, what if presentation doesn't work, what if they laugh at me? Uuuu, not good, not good for me.

What I have to do in this moment is, observe that voice and start to realise, that those words aren't me. Those thoughts aren't me. I am the one observing that thoughts. I am aware. I should just let everything happen. It's the challenge I was given to do so I just have to do it. No thinking, just doing, letting the energy travel through me. That resolution just blew my mind.

So through reading the book you realise, that you are some kind of a spirit, seeing, hearing the world but also being aware of thoughts that actually aren't yours. They are your previous experiences in life, past emotions that you didn't let through. Thoughts are result of everything you've clinged on. And that's what helped me realised, that I can change my life by having this knowledge.

At that point I would like to say, that I already knew before all about positive thinking and The secret book and Law of attraction. a bit about chakras, meditation.. but I just couldn't understand the base of all that and how it connects. 

So if I didn't get you until now, you should know that we are all energy, we have energy within. And this energy (through our energy centres - chakras) is connected with everything. With nature, with other people etc. You can somehow feel it by doing yoga, but mostly by meditating. In that state you are connected to your spirit and heart, but not with your mind (where that little voice is, you just don't think).

Very important thing in everyday life is that you except who you are and your little voice inside. Don't try to shut it down completely, try to help it. So everytime you hear it, be aware of hearing it and LET IT GO! Except what it has to say, be grateful and let it go. Voice can help yourself to see, how you feel and which emotions you have inside. And if there is panic, anger or any other ''bad'' emotions, you really should deal with them in life. Otherwise you won't be able to get on with it. And you deal with them by excepting them and letting them go. Letting that moment past right through you.

When your day looks bad, you should remember, it isn't. It just doesn't matter. The moment you live in now, will pass.. You shouldn't be afraid, just enjoy the moment. The earth will spin anyway. Your life isn't the center of the universe -> we all get so much inside our minds, that we don't even see where we're walking. Just take a moment, take a deep breath and try to realise as many times as possible your presence, here and now. Try to be free of your thoughts just for few moments a day and you will see the difference.

This book really opened my mind and linked everything I knew about few things about spirituality. It's just a nice thing to finally see the whole picture. 

Tell me what you think about that? Have you read it already? If not, please try, it could give you a totally new perspective. It has so much information in it, that one post just isn't enough...

Until next time: love your spirit, love your body, love your thoughts, open your heart... smile!