WHO AM I?

So after a long period of time being jobless, resenting myself for leaving a work place (which I didn't like anyway), being somehow a little depressed and panicking every day what to do about my anger and bad mood... I started searching for information about what is my purpose in life, what is my personality, what am I the best at doing and stuff like that. I just didn't feel that I'm looking in the right direction. Have you every felt that? That something is missing? Sure I was doing good things for myself, running again, eating a little bit healthier and trying to figure out what to do with my life. But still I felt pressure in me, in my heart, my mind was killing me with thoughts that I'm not good enough. What if all falls apart, what if I fall apart, what if I don't get things that I want.. until one day, I came across a book. Oh, that wasn't just a book for me...

I was always interested in THE TRUTH. Who are we? What are we doing here? What is our purpose? What happens when I die?...

For everyone who wants to do some soul searching and get to know the truth, that is a book for you: The untethered soul, by Michael A. Singer. Second book he wrote after is The surrender experiment, which I also recommend. I understood everything better after reading both. 

(read more on: http://untetheredsoul.com/)

So what I've learned is that.. if you pay attention to your everyday life, you will hear a voice speaking to you. All day, for everything. What you like, don't like, what you need, everyday stuff. It gets worse when you have to make a decision or for example have something hard to do. For me that would be a verbal presentation at school. Oooh my, voice starts with ok, I will do this like that and say that like this and oh, how do I look... and then what if that goes wrong, what if presentation doesn't work, what if they laugh at me? Uuuu, not good, not good for me.

What I have to do in this moment is, observe that voice and start to realise, that those words aren't me. Those thoughts aren't me. I am the one observing that thoughts. I am aware. I should just let everything happen. It's the challenge I was given to do so I just have to do it. No thinking, just doing, letting the energy travel through me. That resolution just blew my mind.

So through reading the book you realise, that you are some kind of a spirit, seeing, hearing the world but also being aware of thoughts that actually aren't yours. They are your previous experiences in life, past emotions that you didn't let through. Thoughts are result of everything you've clinged on. And that's what helped me realised, that I can change my life by having this knowledge.

At that point I would like to say, that I already knew before all about positive thinking and The secret book and Law of attraction. a bit about chakras, meditation.. but I just couldn't understand the base of all that and how it connects. 

So if I didn't get you until now, you should know that we are all energy, we have energy within. And this energy (through our energy centres - chakras) is connected with everything. With nature, with other people etc. You can somehow feel it by doing yoga, but mostly by meditating. In that state you are connected to your spirit and heart, but not with your mind (where that little voice is, you just don't think).

Very important thing in everyday life is that you except who you are and your little voice inside. Don't try to shut it down completely, try to help it. So everytime you hear it, be aware of hearing it and LET IT GO! Except what it has to say, be grateful and let it go. Voice can help yourself to see, how you feel and which emotions you have inside. And if there is panic, anger or any other ''bad'' emotions, you really should deal with them in life. Otherwise you won't be able to get on with it. And you deal with them by excepting them and letting them go. Letting that moment past right through you.

When your day looks bad, you should remember, it isn't. It just doesn't matter. The moment you live in now, will pass.. You shouldn't be afraid, just enjoy the moment. The earth will spin anyway. Your life isn't the center of the universe -> we all get so much inside our minds, that we don't even see where we're walking. Just take a moment, take a deep breath and try to realise as many times as possible your presence, here and now. Try to be free of your thoughts just for few moments a day and you will see the difference.

This book really opened my mind and linked everything I knew about few things about spirituality. It's just a nice thing to finally see the whole picture. 

Tell me what you think about that? Have you read it already? If not, please try, it could give you a totally new perspective. It has so much information in it, that one post just isn't enough...

Until next time: love your spirit, love your body, love your thoughts, open your heart... smile!

First rule on how to make your life better

... is ... it's something short
and a well hidden secret...
(joke) I mean..
something you already know...
deep inside you... so
one thing you have to do.. to live happily ever after is:

love yourself

voila! that's right. you are unique and special to this world and if you don't love yourself than no one will be able to love you right back as you deserve.

It's first thing you have to accomplish if you want a better life in general.. and tell me, who doesn't want to be happy? Who doesn't want to be a better mom, son, sister, grandson, niece... For that, you should take care of yourself so you'll be able to live long, be a good friend, colleague, spouse etc.

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I've learned this by reading a book from mrs. Louise Hay, The power is within you. I highly recommend it to anyone who hasn't read it yet.

So she also says you have to adress this ''self love'' through appropriate manners, ten of them actually. Those are:

1. stop criticizing yourself

(we all have this evil voice inside who says we're not good enough, make it shut up)

2. do not scare yourself 

(with negative thoughts, what ifs, should haves...)

3. be nice, gentle and patient with yourself

(be your own teddy bear)

4. be nice to your mind

 (don't think you're stupid)

5. compliment yourself 

(tell to yourself ''you go girl/boy!'' even when accomplishing little things
or just making them better than the last time, every progress is worth it,
you will come far by just putting one feet in front of another)

loving yourself means also to 

6. stand by yourself no matter what 

(even when you did something ''stupid'' - hey! nothing is stupid)

7. love also negative things on you 

(so until you don't get enough control to start thinking positively
almost every day, you'll still have a lot of negative thoughts,
learn to love them, embrace them as they are and let them go
because remember - be gentle)

8. take care of your body 

(healthy body = healthy mind, do some meditations, visualisations)

9. work with the mirror 

(start to love your body, talk to yourself in the mirror, about good and bad things, that's how you'll heal) and last but not least

10. love yourself as you are in this moment

 (past is gone, don't dwell on it and don't worry about future, just love yourself now even with flaws - even thought they're not! ;) )

Once again I really recommend this book to everyone... if you're going through hard time, through illness, if something doesn't feel right or just so ... knowledge about how to live better, healthy and positive life is always welcome.

And most of all stay fearless.

ON TOP of the world

Have you ever felt like nothing can stop you,

like you could

conquer the world?

It's extraordinary feeling of

satisfaction

happiness

and itching your feet

just to dance

to scream

to laugh

If you felt it, tell me... 

what made you feel that way?

I'm sure it was you! 

- brave, loving, worthy human being -

I wish you'd feel like that every day.

Stay fearless ;)

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hey, summer

Sure, I know, I'm a little late on the news. First summer day was actually yesterday

tell me, does it really feel like summer?

Can you feel the breeze and that great smell in the air?

I'm still waiting...

for the feeling that I can finally 
stop worrying,

get to breathe,

feel hot sun on my skin

 & you...

Laying in the greenest grass
right next to your body,
patiently watching your soul 
until your eyes meet mine
and we'll know,
We're finally home.

Until then...

Depression striked

She thought, with every good there must be the bad..

Jin and Jang and all that world balance,

it all made sense

so one day, she woke up sad,

with sick feeling in her stomach and

before she even realised.. she's already battling her demons.

She walked through the city, like nothing happened,

even looking like everyone else, but none of them knew

that their presence is making her even worse.

Every night while trying to fall asleep in tears

and not being able to breathe, her thoughts got darker

persisting until at once her eyes got too heavy.

As morning came she felt better again,

in sheaf of the light she discovered that it's all in her head

and she was just obsessing about every little trouble of hers.

As it is the personal story of everyone, at least once in a lifetime,

you should just be thankful about your blessings in life and just...

stop thinking so much...

and if the D. comes for you with

the question: how long can I feel like this until I fall into pieces?

remember this - you'll be fine and you're not alone!

5 tips for being healthy

Everyone has had a moment in our lifes when we didn't like ourselfes in the mirror. We were uncomfortable in our clothes. They we're just too tight and you just had to get bigger size of those good looking jeans :/ That was my case and I also started to get some health issues even thought I was "just" 20 pounds overweight. In one way I was happy I could see what's going on while things could get further and worse. 

Anyway I learned what I have to do to be healthy. I know we can get a lot of tips on the internet but I would like to start from scratch here. So if you're trying to lose weight or just want to be a healthy, active and fit version of yourself

here are 5 basic rules:

1. Drink water

we all know we have to watch what we put in our mouths and it all starts with water. So at least 8 glasses a day (no soda)! But also tea or coffee counts. Tea on one side makes us thirsty, it actually dehidrates us, so I rather not count it in.

But hey, no sugar in tea or coffee ;) which brings us to another rule...

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2. Eat right food

after years of trying different foods, I felt best when I

- ate no white sugar (stevia or coconut, palm sugar it's ok, of course there's a lot of other sweetners, you can use. Good ones don't play and raise your blood sugar level). Another thing are

- carbs - white pasta, rice and bread has to go out, there's a lot of other healthy possibilities. Last but not least,

- fat - we find our biggest enemy in vegetable oils and margarine (good fat is in olives, olive oil, coconut oil, butter etc.)

You will indeed slip and make ''wrong'' decisions, you're just a human being. So if you want to eat something, do it.. but portion control is important.. If you don't eat what you crave, you'll crave it even more.

3. Exercise

yeah, I know.. I also wish it was different. But after a while you feel so energized, so good. I practise 30 minute high interval 5 days a week (that's how I got my results). Ideal would be at least 45 minutes, 5 days per week.

I decided to try an hour a day (free on weekends). To shock my body and lose those last 5 pounds, which are on my body for a while now. I'll let you know how that goes if you want to :)

So try different exercises, do what you like.. swimming, spinning classes or maybe you're a runner? Through winter I just exercised in my small room, with only my mat and weights made by myself (plastic containers filled with sand) - so no excuses!

4. Reduce stress

Even when you do all of the above, if you encounter stress at work or at home or if it's only in your head, it will be seen on your growing tummy anyway. So try to reduce it, do things that make you happy. Start a hobby, you never know how much pleasure (or money) could that bring you.

Last but not least

5. Love yourself

and your body, it's only one you'll live in. You can't replace it and get another one. But you can make it better. And if you think you're not a good person, start doing something good, something you enjoy, you'll get your self-confidence. But I'm pretty much sure, you're already awesome.

So stay like that and start loving what you see ;) be proud of yourself, you're one and only!

If you'd like to hear more about each one of the topic, please let me know...

Note: I'm not a doctor or have any medical school education, these are just tips that helped me and many others.

Furry little thing

It’s foggy November morning, I open my eyes. My brothers are right next to me in small basket with purple blanket underneath. Blanket is filthy as we all are. Children of the street.

  

Even thought we do live next to one old house, they don't give us much attention. We get some food once a day, maybe twice and it's mostly some meat with potatoes or bread. We sometimes get milk on mornings. It's that kind of morning today.

I don't remember my mother, either my early childhood. She comes from time to time, but she hasn’t come for a while now. Memories are all very blurred and I'm always so sleepy...

As we grew a little older, some of my brothers are playing with me, I'm so proud of my family. When chilly night falls on us, we sleep next to each other again and I feel safe.

Ugh, even days are now getting colder. I don't know what I'd do if I were alone here. We talk about the world behind the fence. It’s always opened and it calls for us to look out. But we're afraid what we might find there.

Once my little sister went out and she never came back. She is very curious and brave. Maybe one day I might go and maybe I'll find her. But not today, rain is pouring, my blanket is so soft...

to be continued

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